Better to write for yourself and have no public, than to write for the public and have no self. Cyril Connolly (1903 - 1974)


I'm freeeeeeeeee......well that's how I feel anyway 09/07

You all know how long I've been wanting to get my driver's license and so many of you have encouraged me by letting me know that it can be done, even when I felt otherwise. What with a busy husband and me not having the time to practice because of the little ones at home.

As a matter-a-fact, the only time I got practice was the once in a blue moon drive to another state, or if we made church on Sundays or going to the kids pediatrician appointments.

Dh's work schedule is hard. He is on call 14 days and only gets 6 days off. Sometimes he does get to come home in the evenings like regular work day, but within that 6 days period is when everything is crammed: appointments, errands, family time etc. And so the time when he should be resting is cut short.

In my country, there really wasn't any reason to drive. Vehicles were everywhere, anytime of day waiting to take you where you need to go. Shoot you didn't have to hail them, they would drive up to meet you!
I've been trying for almost three (3) years now to get this license. I wanted it before my son was born, that didn't happen. I wanted it before baby Victoria was born, that didn't happen and little by little I started to doubt that it ever would.

I remember at 7 months preggos with Victoria I told dh I wanted to go to the DMV. I went. I passed the written test. I was doing well with the car until I turned a curve too wide, the next instant the woman jumped out of the car in the middle of the road and freaked out big time. I was so shocked I didn't even speak. She then took over the wheel and drove back to the office and said I should go get more practice.

She honestly didn't have to freak out like that. It's not like I was driving through cross traffic. And ever since then, I lost even more confidence in myself and all I could think of was that woman freaking out on me like that in the middle of the street. Yes in the middle of the street. She didn't even ask me to pull over. Right there in the middle of the street we exchanged the wheel. With vehicles coming up behind us. I didn't feel that I'd know when I was ready anymore. My confidence was shot. I told dh that whenever he felt I was ready to let me know so that I can try again.

Thursday night he said, I think you are ready. We should go tomorrow.
I was a nervous wreck. All the insecurities came flooding back. And I told dh I'll try. He told me not to worry about it. That I can do it. He has been such a great tutor, I felt totally comfortable driving with him, despite warnings from others that letting family teach you to drive is usually the hardest thing.

So from 3mph in a parking lot (Yea a turtle would laugh at me) to 80mph on an interstate is how far I've come. And today I"m proud to say I finally have my license!

A little bit of freedom.

A personal accomplishment.

This is wonderful.

Of course I'm not just going to jump into the car whenever I wish, I"ll still be taking lessons, but I know that if there's somewhere close by that I need to go I wont have to wait until dh is on days off to get it done.

He will not have to be my cranky grocery shopping partner for too much longer! My husband hates going to the store. I can take them to the park! So many possiblilities.

It's so very exciting for me.

So come on wenches pop out the milk (champagne) and celebrate with me. It has been a long road.

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Temporary Difficulties

Temporary Difficultiesby Barbara Rainey
Have I not wept for the one whose life is hard? Was not my soul grieved for the needy?
Job 30:25

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You've been through the same type of difficulties your children are facing now, whether as preschoolers, school-age kids or teenagers. But have you forgotten what it was really like to be their age? 

When they suffer setbacks, are you there to give them the emotional support they need--from someone who's been there?

Our oldest daughter, Ashley, tried out for the cheerleading squad three times in a row but failed to be chosen on each occasion. Still, she decided to give it one final effort during her junior year, and this time we went all out.
I arranged for her to take lessons. I videotaped her practicing. Together we critiqued her moves. We prayed and prayed about it, feeling surer each time that God wanted her to make the team this year. It would give her a strong platform for influencing her public school for Christ.

But when the tryouts came around, she didn't make it. This time, I was as heartbroken as she was. It seemed so unfair. We cried for hours, so upset that she had to endure this loss a fourth time in a row.

I could have said to her, "Ashley, cheerleading really isn't all that important. You're making too much of a fuss over this." But this was the most important thing in her life at the time, and she needed me to let her know it was okay for her to cry, to feel sad . . . even to wonder why God had said no again.

Through an amazing set of circumstances, Ashley ended up being selected for the squad a week later. But as I look back on that experience now, I realize that the biggest thing God accomplished in our lives at that time was to knit our souls together, mother and daughter, in sorrow.

Name the biggest challenges facing your children right now. How can you walk with them in the valleys yet still help them trust a sovereign and loving God?

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Avoiding Pain - Pastor Jeremiah

This is very interesting to me because I've come to realize this very thing too. We are definitely not disconnected. In some way or form, we are all connected and whatever choices we make, will affect another.

Avoiding Pain
Flee also youthful lusts; but pursue righteousness, faith, love, peace with those who call
on the Lord out of a pure heart.

2 Timothy 2:22

Once there was a man who prayed that God would protect him from evil. His prayer was like the prayer Jesus taught His disciples except that he went further. He expressed a specific reason for wanting not to be led into temptation: "Oh, . . . that You would keep me from evil, that I may not cause pain!" (1 Chronicles 4:10). The man was Jabez, an Old Testament saint who displayed mature wisdom in his prayer.

Whenever we yield to temptation or succumb to evil, we are not the only ones who are hurt. There is usually a friend, a spouse, a child, or some other person who is caused pain by our choice. Even if our choice to sin is purely internal, in the realm of our thoughts, we diminish our future impact on others by the loss of energy and spiritual vitality needed to deal with our sin. Therefore there are always three reasons not to sin: Pain to ourselves, pain to others, and pain to God. No parent likes to witness the failure of his or her children, and God certainly takes no pleasure when we fail.

When you pray, "Lead me not into temptation," keep Jabez's insight in mind: that you might not cause pain in anyone's life.

Each temptation leaves us better or worse; neutrality is impossible.
Erwin W. Lutzer

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