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My Father Walked Away - Happy Father's Day

My mother was 19 years old when she found out she was pregnant. Neighbors told my 'father', that she was pregnant. He went and poked around on her tummy while she was at work. 

That evening when my mother went home, all his things were gone. 

He left. 

She only saw him once again after that. They were standing across the street from each other. They did not speak to each other. I don't know if it was after I was born or while she was still pregnant. 

I'm now almost 30. I do not know my father. He doesn't know me. 

I still pray for him. I hope he is alive. I hope to meet him. I just want to know what is in his heart then and now. 

Despite it all, my heart wants to know. 

However, I have a husband who is present in his children lives and I'm so grateful I made the right choice in choosing / accepting this man as my husband. 

He is strong and very smart and quick witted. He loves to give. I admire this in him so much. He is meticulous with our finances and I feel that I can trust him financially. 

He loves the Lord and he loves me and he loves his children.

Happy Father's Day love.

P.s I think you are sexy and reminds me of one of my fave actors Ralph Fiennes :) *smooch*

 Sharing his bundle with his brother

 We have come a long way, haven't we love?

About the author: Owner of JamericanSpice. Sharing my journey in the present, from the past or thoughts for my future. Mom of two who loves to travel and read and decipher people.
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  1. Father's Day can be a really tough day. I am so glad your wonderful husband make it a wonderful day for you.

  2. What a heartbreaking and beautiful post. I'm so glad the wonderful man that is your husband and father overshadows the heartbreak of the rest.

  3. I'm so sad that you feel the loss of your own father, and I hope one day you will come to know him. However, in the meantime I can see that you have a most wonderful father for your own children, and a wonderful husband for yourself. You're a lucky lady!

  4. Oh girl, where's my crying towel! I'm not sure if I'm sad for you or happy for you! I know {{HUGS}} THAT'S IT - COME ON EVERYBODY WE NEED A GROUP HUG HERE!!! Happy Father's Day to your wonderful hubby & your father wherever he may be!

  5. story of my daughters life ... well almost ... I do feel for you and I am so happy that you found the right man to love and cherish ... (((Group Hug)))

  6. I'm so glad to finally see the man behind the remarkable woman!!!

    Happy Father's Day to you, _______!

    Callie, what's his name!?! :)

  7. What a beautiful family you have! I had to look up Ralph Fiennes and yes he is very handsome and resembles your husband-lucky you!

  8. Awe, your family is ADORABLE and yes, your Hubby is handsome! Go girl! :) Happy Father's Day to him. I'm glad your kids have him in their lives!

  9. What a bittersweet day--I'm sorry about the questions left by your own father. It must be really hard, wondering what he's like and wanting to know him.

    I'm glad you have a good man to help restore your faith in fathers. Did I mention cute too? :)

  10. Father's Day definitely brings up many types of emotions for me and so many other people too! Sorry about that on your dad's behalf. I bet he knows he is missing out on a wonderful daughter!

    You have such a beautiful family! A good man makes all the difference and that he knows God is so wonderful :)

    Hope your family enjoys today!

  11. Oh how sad about your dad! But luckily you have a lovely man and beautiful kids. Gorgeous family!!

  12. hope you meet him someday
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  13. what a sweet post ...
    sorry about your dad, but glad you have love in your heart


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