It's midnight to the cross over of the next day and I'm here almost to the end of this movie that I realize is so much more gear towards life than fiction. I like these kinds of movies.
The end brought welled up tears to my eyes.
My kids are sleeping.
I'm on guard in a sort of way mothers do when they are alone with their children.
And then it hits. That space of loneliness that makes you feel the need for something, someone, daylight, the phone, people,...something.
I'm not sad.
I'm just lonely and I hope by tomorrow, it will go away. For now I'll let it pass through me.
If it doesn't leave tomorrow. I'll give it incentive to leave.
If it still doesn't, then let it be until it's time is spent.
I'm used to loneliness.
“When I get lonely these days, I think: So BE lonely, Liz. Learn your way around loneliness. Make a map of it. Sit with it, for once in your life. Welcome to the human experience. But never again use another person's body or emotions as a scratching post for your own unfulfilled yearnings.”
― Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love
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Hi Colette,
ReplyDeleteThe message in this post is powerful. I hope you feel better tomorrow. Life certainly has its ups and downs. Keep the faith and fight on. All the best to you.
Judy
Thank you Judy. I appreciate that.
ReplyDeleteI think it's a bit better today. I think once I awake, there is no me anymore, but us and if I'm focused about taking care of others, there's less of me and not time to ponder/feel too much.
I understand loneliness and admire your strength and wisdom in dealing with it. I pray for your healing.
ReplyDeleteI believe those thoughts are quite natural. And hold no threat as long as we can deal with them. Knowing those feelings will end and/or dealing with them helps. As longs as they go away...
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