I'm always guilty of something or everything. Seems I live in guilt and it keeps me in line. Seriously that is no way to live and I'm trying to shake it. I keep wondering if it's a psychological thing from childhood.
I'm a good mother. (There, I said it with some doubt) I am a very good mother! But yet I pile on the guilt of how I can be better, what I"m not doing right or should be doing and blah blah blah blah blah. Sometimes I simply tell myself to SHUT UP! Because I can't take one more hit.
I get to stay home with my children. What glory! Yet I feel vulnerable. I should be working. I do not like being dependent on anyone (<<---definitely childhood psyche). I should be contributing more financially. I need a career. My life is getting away from me and then I"ll be old and out...and miserable.
There is nothing wrong with wanting to improve myself, but the things I aspire to be, shouldn't diminish the person I am.
I'm learning to embrace my changes, my learning, my little strengths...my life.
BUT we can cut the threads of guilt with the edge of grace.
If I'm going to have any peace, I will have to allow God's grace to be my buffer always and not just sometimes when it feels okay.
Today I will begin by celebrating my gifts. Each little one.
And as Psalm 139: 13 says: I am fearfully and wonderfully made!
What is one gift you have that you can celebrate?
Colette is a busy mom of 2 kids focusing solely on being a mom. She hails from the Caribbean and now balances the full life of being a SAHM and dabbling in odd jobs to help around the home. She enjoys sharing her memories, hopes, food, travel, entertainment, and product experiences on her blog. Please read my disclosure