Let's just admit it upfront, I'm a reactor. I get touched, I get turned on, I go full speed to detonation! In short, I blow up easy!
But really, I am Sikes.
Why am I angry?
I know that I never used to get angry at all about anything as a child growing into adulthood. I wasn't allow expressions and so I stuffed it down inside. Sometimes I'd get so hot with anger, I could see green, but I'd just swallow, smile and say: Oh it's not a big deal. No problem at all.
I was very good at it too.
And then I got married.
And now I have children.
I thought I'd still be very good at not being mad, but I have a leak. My dam has full on burst and boy oh boy am I becoming the type of person I do not want to be.
So I set about to work on handling my anger. I can't tell you how many times I've apologized to my children and in doing so, I also ask them to pray for mommy. I have the firm belief that children's prayers are most pure.
A teacher sent home something from their school once about handling anger and I've had it taped to the cupboard in our kitchen. I practice with them as I'm learning. I tell my children that I'm also learning because when I was their age, I did not have the help to decipher and handle my emotions.
So while reading my devotional this morning, Lisa gave five Q and A on how to know if I'm a reactor or a responder:
When I come unglued I'm a reactor (most of the time) and soon I'll be a better responder. Practice makes better. And I can see a few signs in myself already over the past few years.
1. Do I want to escalate this conflict or dissipate it?
I usually do not want to because I'm not quarrelsome. It's just the fact that when I get angry I want to say very mean things (I usually don't) But I will smash things and give the cold shoulder. I'm not talking about being silent and working things out inside before going back to the table. I'm talking about COLD Russia shoulder!
a. A reactor escalates the conflict
b. A responder dissipates the conflict
2. Do I want more trouble or more grace in my life?
Come on. Y'all know which we all want. And yet our reactions always produce trouble.
a. A reactor adds trouble on top of trouble.
b. A responder adds grace on top of grace
3. Do I want to be known as harsh or gentle?
Yup. That's what I ask myself all the time. I want my home to be welcoming, which means I want my husband to want to come home and relax.
I want my children to want to come home in a hurry to just be safe and happy and playing. And because this is what I want, I force myself into the habit of change. Remember the two wolves analogy?
a. A reactor either spews emotion or masters the silent treatment
b. A responder give a gentle answer.
4. Do I want to get my own way or help find a resolution?
I'm all for the resolution, but to be honest, y'all know I'm going for the my own way. Isn't that how we are wired? This is why for peace sake, I've learned it's better to have a resolution, then to have my own way.
a. A reactor only sees things her way.
b. A responder realizes there are always two sides to every issue.
5. Which do I care more about --demanding my rights or displaying right choices?
a. A reactor demands her right to be right.
b. A responder is more concerned about making right choices before God.
Are you a reactor or a responder?
And share a tip on how you handle your anger.
And we are doing the Sillies of course :)
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Colette is a busy mom of 2 kids focusing solely on being a mom. She hails from the Caribbean and now balances the full life of being a SAHM and dabbling in odd jobs to help around the home. She enjoys sharing her memories, hopes, food, travel, entertainment, and product experiences on her blog. Please read my disclosure