The past week have been just a bit stressful. I know why some of the emotions are upon me and wish I could get away from them.
I used to be so strong. But I think without a way to replenish oneself, you get depleted quickly. Especially when you have kids around that demands so much and you are alone....
On my way home I was so upset, I began to cry. It is unsafe to cry while driving. I tried so hard to put away the feelings but they just came a crushing and I admit I began to wonder if I was even a Christian, or even if God cared much about my life. It seems I'd like to be farther along in my development of being a good and strong person that He is willing to prune/add. I was being selfish. I didn't doubt Him for one minute, but I still had the questions. Maybe I wouldn't even make it to heaven. Maybe I'm just going to be a failure at everything. How will I ever find a good job. Why at this point in my life, am I barely able to put food on the table....
I was really down and going down and this song came on immediately. And gosh I cried even harder!
Do you wonder why you have to
Feel the things that hurt you
If there's a God who loves you
Where is He now
Maybe there are things you can't see
And all those things are happening
To bring a better ending
Someday somehow you'll see you'll see
Would you dare would you dare to believe
That you still have a reason to sing
Cause the pain that you've been feeling
It can't compare to the joy that's coming
So hold on you gotta wait for the light
Press on and just fight the good fight
Cause the pain that you've been feeling
It's just the dark before the morning
My friend you know how this all ends
And You know where you're going
You just don't know how you'll get there
So say a prayer
And hold on cause there's good for those who love God
But life is not a snapshot
It might take a little time but you'll see the bigger picture
Would you dare would you dare to believe
That you still have a reason to sing
Cause the pain that you've been feeling
It can't compare to the joy that's coming
So hold on you gotta wait for the light
Press on and just fight the good fight
Cause the pain that you've been feeling
It's just the dark before the morning
Once you feel the weight of glory
All your pain will fade to memory
Once you feel the weight of glory
All your pain will fade to memory, memory, memory
Would you dare would you dare to believe
That you still got a reason to sing
Cause the pain that you've been feeling
It can't compare to the joy that's coming
Come on you've gotta wait for the light
Press on and just fight the good fight
Cause the pain that you've been feeling
It's just the hurt before the healing
Oh the pain that you've been feeling
It's just the dark before the morning
Before the morning
It wasn't even loud. Just in the background of the vehicle.
I got home safe. I apologize to my kids for being awful to them at the store.
Put away groceries, made dinner and during some of that time I prayed.
God really cares about us. And sometimes he reaches out with the one thing that can break through at that time.
Life is definitely not a shapshot and when I checked Dolly's theme for today, this post was perfect and this shall be the music for my week.
Theme: Songs that inspire us.
Can't wait to visit with y'all! Have a great week!
Colette is a busy mom of 2 kids focusing solely on being a mom. She hails from the Caribbean and now balances the full life of being a SAHM and dabbling in odd jobs to help around the home. She enjoys sharing her memories, hopes, food, travel, entertainment, and product experiences on her blog. Please read my disclosure
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Callie dear, you should know God is everywhere, and he is always with us. You need to let him carry you at times of depression. What a inspiring song you have shared with us too. I never heard this one, but maybe you ought to listen to this one again. Hugs my dear friend, and I shall remember you in my prayers tonight too.
ReplyDeleteYes I know he is everywhere dahling woman. I just have to share the times he shows up for this weak creature :)
Delete*HUGS*
I hope you have found some relief in your prayers and in a good cry. I'm glad you sought refuge in your faith in spite of some of your doubts in that moment.
ReplyDeleteVery much so Liz.
DeleteThank you.
I'm sorry to hear you've had a rough time today. Luckily, the sun's always just around the corner. really, really. :)
ReplyDeleteThe sun always pops out Rosey :) And just because we can't see, doesn't mean it's not there (that's what I tell my kids ) And they really know it's true :)
DeleteKeep close to your heart, dear Callie, that satan looks for opportunities to steal your happiness. Doubts came from the great deceiver himself, so be at peace. Cling to God's promises there is a season for everything. In time, you'll find the right job and the things that seem so strained in your life will smooth over. I totally know how difficult it is to have young ones around all the time and you can't find a sec to escape to reclaim some of your sanity. Just hold on sister cause thing do get better. These are trying, difficult times, but God will give you the strength. Keep the faith! I'm praying for you. ;)
ReplyDeleteIndeed he does Cathy. Always deceiving all of us in every and any way he can. With God's grace I'm rescued.
DeleteSome days are just harder than some and God shows up to carry me.
Thank you *HUGS*
Don't stress, Colette and don't doubt yourself. Many times it's a breaking down that leads us to being built up. This is a great song. Have a wonderful week!
ReplyDeleteYou are so right about the breaking down Lynn.
DeleteThank you :)
Stress...I know what that is all about. I have learned to let it go as water slips off a duck's back, so to speak. I have high blood pressure and need to take it easy. That's been the main reason for those migraines that I was getting. Money is very tight around our home. Contracting work is very hard to come by, so we are always on a tight budget. We are trying to make ends meet by tomorrow. Hubby is out trying to hustle up some work right now. I need to stay calm, and I'm doing all right.
ReplyDeleteTake some deep breaths, and try your best to relax. Have a sweet and peaceful week,
Danielle
I forgot to add that sometimes you have to cry. It can let out those emotions that you are bottling up. Take care.
DeleteI'm definitely trying to let it go. Just sometimes it just overwhelms.
DeleteI hope everything will work out with the job and budget Danielle. Thank you for sharing with me.
Definitely lots of deep breathing happening here. *HUGS*
Such a beautiful song Colette!
ReplyDeleteAnd remember - He sees the little sparrow fall too and He cares for it! How much more does He care for you - his beautiful precious daughter!! He knew you before you were formed. He has called you by name! Don't let the enemy steal your joy - tell that Father of lies to get behind you!! For if God is for you; who can be against you!
Blessings and peace to you my friend.
Thank you Rory.
DeleteThese are the things I tell my children, but it's hard to encourage oneself eh.
Thank you for reminding me of these words.
*HUGS*
I've felt the same way on so many occasions. I still do sometimes. I try to fight that hopeless feeling but it is hard. I turn to others for support at those times. I think that song came to you at exactly the right moment. Deep down I know that things will be okay and there will be a light at the end of the tunnel...it's keeping that faith which is hard on occasions. I love the lyrics to that song, as soon as I finish here I am heading over to check it out. I will definitely take part in this meme at some point. xo
ReplyDeleteIt was at the perfect moment...I could almost barely hear it and yet I could so clearly. A quiet voice.
DeleteThanks for visiting and sharing Tami.
I do hope you share with us since you love music so much.
Oh my, I just wondered what person hasn't once breakdown? I think it is natural that when you are under so much stress and demands, to crumble. I think even the strongest woman, crumble, just not all the time.
ReplyDeleteI pray you will get a great job, it is the door to many things. Having independence is having money or is it the other way around? Hang in there~