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9/23/14

Circle Of Love - Adoption

As a child and into adulthood, I held this dream / hope in my heart to be an adoptive parent. I remember how I wished and prayed to find a family who would love me and accept me as one of their own. It never happened for me and I knew I wanted to give a child or two this enclosure of a loving family to be there for them as they grew up.

I'm an adult now, married with two of my own and what once burned hot in my heart is like a little ember. Not because I don't want to anymore, but because of the trampling of life on my heart, dreams, marriage, family.

How I pictured it would go, did not happen.

I saw me married with two young children, and then adopting two young children to grow up with our children and become dear siblings. I feel it's easier when they grow together. OF course that is never a hindrance to adopting.

My children are older now...
They still want siblings :) The boy wants a brother and the girl wants a sister :) Ahh the wishes of life.

The years have passed and my hope is not gone, but more on reserve.

I had thought my husband would be delighted by this desire of mine. He said it's okay but there is no passion as I have and I honestly don't know how deeply he feels for it.  And then again, I haven't had a deep discussion with him about it and ask if he would want to begin a process etc.

When the problems hit our marriage, I figure why would I want to bring a hurt child into our broken family?

When I started to doubt myself as a good mother, I thought: Why would I want to subject a hurt child to my shortcomings?

I thought...
I thought...

And as life darts hits, my hope and desire for adoption has faded from it's fervor.

I just prayed again about it after seeing this video. Not my will Lord, but thine.

Have you been adopted?
Would you consider adoption?
Have you already adopted?

Love is never out of time.



I know for sure if this was me, my knees would give out. I'd bawl until I was puffy too.  What a most precious thing to find love, family, God.




Colette is a busy mom of 2 kids focusing solely on being a mom. She hails from the Caribbean and now balances the full life of being a SAHM and dabbling in odd jobs to help around the home. She enjoys sharing her memories, hopes, food, travel, entertainment, and product experiences on her blog. Please read my disclosure 
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8 comments :

  1. Adoption is a wonderful thing!!!!
    and never ever doubt you as a mother -- you are ROCKING IT!!!

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  2. Those who have a heart for adoption are blessed. :) I could have adopted and been thrilled to do so. But then again, I have a huge heart for children, most especially those in need of security and love.

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    1. You are precious Rosey.
      And thank you.
      Maybe God will be make it done.

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  3. I would love to adopt a child one day. It is very difficult in this country. You have a wonderful heart. :-)

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    1. It is very difficult here. And so many to love and give a home.

      We'll keep our embers burning...

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  4. My father adopted a baby just after he remarried. I was ok about it, I knew he wanted to start over with his younger wife. It was hard for my sister, the hurt was there after my parents divorced. I'm glad I did accept his choice because it actually brought us closer. My son is the same age as his little girl, so my Dad always was calling me for parenting advise. :)

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    1. I"m so glad for you, that this has brought you even closer with your father.
      I pray your sister will heal soon and mend.

      Thank you so much for sharing Betsy

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